A woman in my Comfort Club described cancer as having an unwelcome passenger in the front seat of your life. No matter where you go or what you are doing it’s always sort of – there.
I can be having a perfectly nice day and suddenly a thought will come to me that says, “You have Stage 3C Cancer ….it’s just a matter of time….”. Even when I am having a perfectly good day – it’s sort of always in the back of my mind.
I asked the girls at Comfort Club if even after many years of being cancer free – does that unwelcome passenger still try to work it’s way into the front seat of your life?
Every single woman nodded yes in an I’m-so-sorry kind of way.
I am starting to see how I can slam the door on that unwelcome passenger. That evil presence causes me to lean heavily on the Lord – moment by moment and minute by minute – and then I become filled with His supernatural presence. And when I am filled with the Holy Spirit – there is no longer room for the unwelcome passenger.
It’s interesting to me – the very thing that has caused me great angst is the thing that has drawn me closer to the Lord. And as I have drawn closer to the Lord the unwelcome passenger doesn’t show up quite as often. I think he’s starting to give up.
In her book, Fully Alive, Susie Larson spoke right to my heart as she describes what she learned about the enemy – the unwelcome presence in her life.
I identified a lie from the devil that has nipped at my heels my whole life: “I can get to you any time, anywhere. And God will never stop me.”
Thankfully, Jesus whispered to my heart right then, ‘It’s not true. There is a limit to what I’ll allow in your life. Someday you’ll see not only how richly I’ve provided for you but also how much I’ve prevented because I love you and I know your limits. I’m not going to let you lose, but I have to let you fight.
…Yes, it feels like the enemy has you by the neck, but soon enough your foot will be on his neck.
I love that about putting my foot on the neck of the enemy. Just love it. The enemy is nothing compared to God’s power in my life. Pfft.
Over the past three months I have seen blessing after blessing and miracle after miracle. I am hearing God’s voice impressed on my heart as never before. I have connected with some of the most amazing people I have ever met and I realize that I would not have connected with them had I not had a cancer diagnosis. My faith has deepened and I have grown to trust Him more. In many regards I am more peace-filled than I have ever been in my life.
But along with that – now that I know that 10 years from now that unwelcome passenger might try to crawl back up into my head and into my heart, when he comes around I am going to put my foot on his skinny little neck. Because of God’s power within me, the enemy holds no power over me.
I will let the enemy know, in no uncertain terms, that there is no more room in the front seat of my life. Nope. Jesus is sitting there right next to me. I’m done with that.
Great perspective Jackie. You have nailed it!
Jon – Eric emailed you! Also – long story but the short of it is that I was pushing for proton therapy and the wonderful Mayo doctor was honest enough to say that at this point it is not proven to be any better than regular radation. Since proton therapy would have cost us $130,000 out of pocket we opted for regular radiation at Frauenshuh Breast Center. Our radiation oncologist feels very confident that there will be no damage to my heart and lungs. I am praying that will be the case!
Yes, glad to get his email and looking forward to lunch. The uncertainty of this new experience is trying, as you so well know. We have heard of the Proton radiation. That’s one thing about Mayo, we have found them to be honest about treatment options. $130000! Wow! I hope that the treatment wasn’t too stressful on you. You certainly have kept up with your wonderful communications. Prayers continuing., now for protection of heart and lungs. Day 3 of chemo for Steph. So far so “ok”. Best, Jon